Sustolle Mentum, Pulchra.

justinpancakes:

I miss you. I miss everything. I miss seeing you every morning, and I regret every little thing that I did.. I took you for granted, and you were the one that held this family together. You held me together, and that’s what I miss the most. You held me tight when everything was falling apart. I don’t know how you dealt with me.. You’re just a mere memory now, and I hate that. I hate this. Grandma, what the hell am I suppose to do? I need you.. I’m lost; no one else cherishes me more than you ever did. And, that sucks, because I’m a mess. An even worse mess. I don’t know what to do anymore.. My life has no purpose; I’m useless to this world. I’m a burden to everyone, and the woman I love most is gone. I took you and her for granted. She’ll never come back.. I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore! Let alone why I’m here.. My anger’s consumed me. And so has my sorrow. My faith’s gone.. I’m worthless. A fucking sleaze bag!  Just please, I know you’re listening, grandma; please talk to me. Tell me I’m worth something to this world.. Tell me how I’ll live long and how my life’s going to be filled with happiness.. I miss that.. My belief in everything has passed. For God sake, you’re not even here anymore.. And I wish you were..

              -Love, your grandson, the fool

“The power of making me fall in love is the most powerful one… (;”

”/: ! Have no fear your pretty girl is here<4”

“My mom wants to meet you. She says I need to stop talking about you so much and just bring you over ha”

“I swear everytime we’re together I fall for you even harder”

I miss you.

fuck it.

You made me so high.

My girlfriend just asked me to have a hp series movie night with her.. I knew I fell in love with the right person<4

We fight, about irrational subjects that we don’t even remember why we were fighting in the first place. We get jealous, about who we’re talking to, who’s on our wallpaper, and who we’re hanging out with. Shit’s going to fucking happen, and no matter how serious of shit it is, we’re going through it together, whether if it’s one of us getting cancer or if we’re having a baby with none of our family support. I will never leave you, permanently, and I will never treat you wrong. Yes, I’ve done it before, but after all the struggles and sorrow we’ve been through, I’ve learned to acknowledge my mistakes, all the chaotic obstacles we’ve endured. I love you; know that. I will always love you. Nothing will ever separate us, and fuck it; I’m going to admit it: I fell for you hard, and know that you will always have my heart after every little shit that happens. You’ve dealt with every single one of my mistakes, and for that, for now on, I will never take you for granted. I love you and every single thing about you, pretty girl. Know that. Always & Nothing<4

I went to go the doctors for my ankle, which I sprained in October of last year, and the doc said that I have to wear a laced brace for three weeks. After that, if it doesn’t heal, I’m going to need to get an MRI and surgery.. where they have to shave off some of my bone for my tendons, so it won’t hurt and aggravate me anymore. And, he said that if we even do the surgery, it won’t fully heal..

I really don’t want surgery.. :/